Following is Fred Van Itallie’s thoughtful and honest reflection on life at Trinity, given on 25 October 2009 as part of Trinity’s Stewardship campaign:

“This year’s stewardship campaign asks us to focus on “Your Response to God’s Generosity.” So let me offer you a few insights into how you might go about answering this “knock on the door” of our hearts.

“First, I must tell you where I am coming from. Jesus, and through him, the Church have been a part of my life for nearly all my life. It has not been always a walk in the park—rather sometimes a pilgrimage through a dark forest.

“He has led me through some strange and wonderous times and rescued me countless times, often from myself and my own shortcomings. He asks for nothing in return but love.

“He has given me friends who have supported me in dark times and strength to endure hardship. Still he asks for nothing in return but love.

“His love is a hardship, too. Sometimes, it seems he loves those I don’t like and wonders why I don’t love them, too. But he forgives me and asks for nothing in return but love.

“He led me to this church over 30 years ago. Sometimes it was very hard and painful to be a member, but his sweetness persisted and I still rejoice with songs of praise each Sunday for all that he has done.

“So, what do I give to the one who loves me so much that he gives me every blessing of peace and purpose, yet asks for only love in return?

“That, friends, is the question. You won’t find it in your checkbook, but in your heart. Praise the Lord!”

—Fred Van Itallie